Saturday, September 01, 2007

i hate myself for being so not initiative
i hate myself for always needing to be 'invited' to a group
i hate myself for tinkin that my cousins hate me which well might be true
i hate myself for being such a loner
i hate myself for not being able to tell sum1 im not alrite
instead smile and sae everything's fine
i hate myself for feeling inferior to everyone
i hate myself for my stupid character
and if i were to go on this list
i'll just go on forever
wells lets just make it simple
I HATE BEING ME
ive not felt and thought this way 4 a very long time alredi
feeling that i reali suck
well dun mind me then
i'll just be insignificant
and blend in with the environment
isnt it always like this?
it doesnt make a difference
if i exist anot
seriously
i can just disappear now
of coz u all will be ohno shiyeng's gone
bud aft awile
i'll just be forgotten
sumtimes
i seriously wish to lose my memory
and 4get all these feelings that i have
and reali like me for ME
bud i guess...
im unable to tell ani1 how i feel
or mayb im just making myself feel that way
wadever
i guess i'll just have to push tis all away
and conc on prelims and Os 1st

im giving up on my cca points i guess i'll be stuck with a B3 then
shessh

I NID ARCADE SERIOUSLY

what we could have been, 1.9.07.